So I am back to blogging!!! Super excited.
I remember this one time when I felt really low. It was at a
time when I needed love but didn’t seem like I was getting enough. I needed
money and it seemed so far out of my reach. I needed attention but everything
seemed more important than my needs.
At that time in my life, even my husband didn’t seem to
notice that I needed this attention, that I needed so much, that I was needy.
It hurt, it sure hurt badly. This was a time in my life where I had quit my job
of 5 years in the banking sector to have a baby and also pursue my dream of
working with children (gist for another day). I decided to throw myself into
work and started pursuing hubbys ministry, making enquiries about starting a
school, and a few other things I had my mind on. The point here is that I was
doing everything to solve peoples problems by providing solutions but was
doing nothing for myself. How would I not feel exhausted and in need. To make
matters worse, I was unsure of what it was that I really needed! At this point
I had to deal with a lot of things. One of them was to learn to trust in God
totally because I had tried men and they had failed me. Now, if you know me
very well, I am a choleric woman and as such I feel that rush of BRING IT ON
there is nothing I cant sort out almost all of the time. Well, I had taken
things on in my own strength and I had no more strength to see them through. I
was completely drained. Diagnosed with HBP cos I was doing too much all at the
same time. Now, I got a job working in a good school but I lost it due to ill
health. I was asked to go and get treatment so I had to resign. How did that
happen? I thought this was the right path to my happily ever after? Went back
home and got help medically and was told not to do anything but rest. Which I
did (at least I tried to). Hahahaha. I eventually started an after school which
was going well but in all of this time, I kept telling myself You need God in
all this.
Always feeling exhausted and not meeting up to targets or
deadlines, I eventually went to God and in less than 5 minutes he showed me
Psalm 46 vs 1…..He is all I need MY EVER PRESENT HELP. Trust me now when I say
I am so free….blood pressure back to normal, joy restored, happiness restored,
everything the devil tried to steal, I TOOK BACK. No smiling with him oh!
Infact one day, I stood in my room and stuck my tongue out and said devil NTOI
like 3 times and I laughed so hard cos he wanted to take my life, my joy, my
peace, my everything away from me but I thank God because He never left me
alone. All I needed to do was realize that and everything started falling into
place.
In other news, I am still working with MK and we are excited
about the songs we are releasing this year (#NAYOURHAND) and the album EXPRESSIONS OF
GRATITUDE next year. Join us in making people aware of this blessing before it
comes through. You thought SOUND OF HEAVEN was a blessing….this is an even
greater blessing my dear….anticipate.
